Yay for Harry Potter!

Halloween is coming up, and I don't think I'll wear the same costume as last year (Spanish dancer). Wearing the same costume gets old after two years in a row, so I'll do something else. I might wear that peasant dress I wore on Halloween a few years ago and go as Giselle. Giselle is a ballet character - a peasant girl who goes mad and dies of grief after being betrayed in love. Well, I definitely feel like Giselle after what happened in my own love life recently... But lately I've been on a Harry Potter kick because of the fourth movie coming out next month, so within the last few days I thought of going as a death eater instead. I could go as Bellatrix Lestrange. I found the perfect cape in a thrift store that I could wear for that, but it's so friggin' expensive. I would expect thrift store clothes to not be $47, even if it's a billowing cape made of velour. And I would need to find a picture of the real Dark Mark to draw on my arm. Too many different versions of it on Google Images, I need a pic of what it's really supposed to look like. And to all my friends - anyone know of any Halloween parties going on this weekend? I'm thinking of throwing one on Halloween night (Monday - mark your calendars!) but I want to go to events on the weekend too. Is the Halloween Pub at the Wave sold out? I remember last year it was crazy...

Attention Harry Potter fans! Funniest Harry Potter Parody ever!

And now for another hilarious HP parody... For all fans of The Sound of Music! My favorite songs in that parody - The Sound of Magic, Se-ve-rus, Do You Want to Duel, and So Long Farewell.

There's this kid in my dance class who looks exactly like Luke, except 5 years younger. Every time I see him, he always reminds me of Luke! Another difference between the two - the other kid doesn't have the same voice, or the thick Tignish accent.

I went to an awesome theatre workshop on the weekend. It was about auditioning. And I have an audition coming up this weekend! Yay!

As for the love dilemma, I'm still sad about it. Though I don't cry anymore, my feelings of heartache will probably return the next time I see him. But Rachel suggested I offer up my sadness and I decided to do that - I offered it up for my future husband, whoever he is. That God protect him and keep him safe, and lead us to find each other when the time is right. Perhaps the man I'm praying for is someone I have yet to meet, or maybe I'm already friends with him. Either way, my heart is still hoping that he will turn out to be the one. Maybe he's just not ready for me yet. Or maybe God will lead me to a better man. I don't know...

Another Sad Love Song...

Nick Lazzarini won So You Think You Can Dance, yay!

Anyway...

I can't listen to happy love songs anymore, they make me depressed because they make me think of the happiness I can't have. The only ones I can listen to without feeling sad are the jazz standards on my Ella Fitzgerald cd. But then again, those ones don't make me think of heartache and failed potential romance, I think of myself singing them on Canadian Idol for a huge audience with a big band backing me up and that distracts me from my sadness. I suppose I'll get over it eventually, but I know it won't happen any time soon. He had all the qualities that are essential to me in a man, and I don't understand how anyone could expect me to get over him quickly.

"No One Like You" by Sarah Brightman was such a happy song for me. I remember once when we were driving to Summerside, we were playing a Sarah Brightman cd on his car stereo and when that song played, he mentionned that he loved it. I had never cared for it much before, but I then started to notice the beauty in it. From then on, that song reminded me of him and I always associated it with him and the way I feel about him. But now, it's a sad song. Every time I hear it now, my heart starts to ache and I can't help but cry...

I haven't had much to write about lately. Nothing exciting has happened this week. But to all my friends who are married, engaged, or going steady - please remember how lucky you are. Thank God every day for what you have. I can only wish to have your luck in love. But don't assume I'm trying to attract pity or that I'm jealous - I am truly happy for you and the happiness you've found. I just wish I could be fortunate enough to find it too...

They're writing songs of love, but not for me...

A lucky star's above, but not for me.
With love to lead the way, I've found more clouds of grey
Than any Russian play could guarantee...

Well, as of tonight, I'm heartbroken. Everyone probably saw it coming. They all figured he knew about my feelings. Turns out he did hear it through the grapevine. When I see him again at Christmas, I hope I'll be strong enough to prevent myself from crying a river...

As for the rest of my week, it was the usual thing. Work, dance, gym, chatting with friends, etc. Neal's WYD reunion party was cool - we watched the videos and showed our pictures. Last weekend, Sara, Cheryl and I went to the drive-in to see Star Wars III and The Fantastic Four. I couldn't go to the Life Chain thing today because of work, but I said a prayer for it.

I don't feel like writing much tonight. I'm too sad and I need a hug.